Apologies

[0verzeal0us]

I’m just finding it overwhelming. As always, I’m thankful for being part of an awesome community to help out.

[0verzeal0us]

I’ve been wanting to share what it’s like living with Asperger’s, however, I don’t know how best to communicate it. The following articles from the National Autistic Society May help (both me and you):
https://www.autism.org.uk/about/communi ... ating.aspx and https://www.autism.org.uk/about/behavio ... tines.aspx

A lot of the time I’m not online I’m updating my OneNote. For an insight on how severe this can be, please see an excerpt of one of my notebooks: https://1drv.ms/u/s!Altmhqse1obacIjbjcLeiVavNPY

[SpecOpsVX]

Zel buddy, just seen this because you posted an update for it, obviously previously I wasn't here when this was originally put up. As you have noted before though I can't remember when I said it, I did say it. I also have Aspergers and it was diagnosed right after a 3 month burst of suicidal depression which was the reason I failed my degree and have certain emotional issues which means I can see terrible things and simply switch off my emotions and feel absolutely nothing. I have to work at it to stop that from happening of course because it is an intense level of emotional detachment and can have an adverse effect on those close to me when they realise what I'm doing. Of course Aspergers affects everyone differently and with the exception of being crap at small talk I have mostly mastered my condition in the 8 years since it was diagnosed to the point where I am me and everything about me is so integrated that most don't ever notice. Also I have a massively high level of intelligence that is locked behind my dyslexia which was once described by my edu psyc as a Porsche with the handbrake on. The way it leaks out is in learned emotional intelligence, the ability to read people and abit like a bio super computer the ability to constantly update and revise my social ques and to such a finely tuned level that no-one realises. At this point even I don't realise what I'm doing because its automatic but I put alot of thought unconsciously into how I come across and adapt myself accordingly, which prevents social awkwardness because I have learned how to be 'normal' hahaha whatever the hell that is. If you ever want to talk about it or share experiences or ask for advice then do say hello. God knows I've been through the toughest parts. The way I got through it in the end was by signing up with security at Westminster Abbey. Because I was then forced daily to talk to thousands of people of all ages and nationalities my mind and social understanding was excersised to the point where I didn't struggle any more. In other words I jumped in at the deep end and subjected myself to most Aspergian's idea of pure hell. It taught me alot. I now know what's happening when you're gone for little periods but I think my first and best piece of advice is, don't feel the need to take part in the banter, just relax and turn off your mic if you want to but don't try to find solace away from your friends, trust me, it works but it won't help in the long run. Still from what I've seen and heard from you, you're doing alot better now than you were 8 months ago.

[0verzeal0us]

Thanks Spec. I am a lot better but some days are worse than others. I’m really happy that I’m in EBS as they’re always here.